I stumbled across this quite a while ago, just thought of sharing it to you all.
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Much of the freedom in our life comes from our ability to make choices as well as the option of having choices. I have never taken it for granted and have always been thankful for the different opportunities that I find myself facing. Life is a lot more interesting when you weave your own path and I’ve been very fortunate to have a family who has, for the most part, supported me in the decisions of my life with the exception of some.

Currently, choice seems to be causing most of the problems in my life. It’s not that I don’t want to be able to choose what I want, but I guess it’s more like I don’t know what I want to choose anymore. Weighing the pros and cons are pathetically useless when they basically equate each other and sometimes the negativity of one con is equal to the positivity of two pros so that doesn’t work out too well. Some decisions are easier to reach because the consequences are temporary but others may very well pave the rest of my life. That might be a bit dramatic, because change can sneak its way in when you want it to, but the idea is that it is very stressful.

There are so many choices but each choice is so final in a way. Yes, I can always go back but I want to avoid making a mistake. It’s hard not to feel a little overwhelmed by all of it. Difficult doesn’t even begin to describe it. I think most of all though, I just don’t want to let anybody down. I know no one is putting on any selective pressures of expectations from me but still, I want them to be proud. I want my mom to know that I’m dedicated and smart so that she won’t think that I was just a waste of time. I want my dad to know that I’m committed and ambitious so that he can continue believing in me and giving me hope. I want my friends to know that I’m respectable and diligent, so that they won’t ever think any less of me.

I’m not living to impress others, because the person I want to make the most proud of would be me. At the end of the day, the most important person is myself. I want to make sure I’m satisfied with the accomplishments and obstacles that I’ve conquered.

Things will turn out okay; they always do. Everything is indeed amazing, I should be happy. I will be happy.

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