Is it me? Or is it that I was never meant to date while I'm still schooling? My first was, all I can say is, short. I mean, very short. I can’t say I know the real reason of the break-up because some things might have been kept unspoken than to be told. It might just be like that because one does not want the other to get upset or somewhat relating. My second was, not short – to me – but a throw-away. (or as 256 has said, 'half-hearted') Again, I said: I can’t really state that I know the real reason of any break-up... unless I break it myself.

Being the goodie is always disappointing, especially when I am the goodie, because I’d always get hurt at the end; which isn’t fair. [sighs] However, all I’m trying to say is, it’s not entirely their fault, but I can’t understand why those who play as the goodie, except me, gets all the goodies.

My bestfriends have told me this many times:
‘You don't deserve to be treated like this.’
‘You deserve better.’
And if I deserve ‘better’, then why don’t I get ‘better’?

I have said: I’m going to set a goal for myself – to date when I’m old enough. 18y/20yrs?
And a friend has told me: If you set a goal like that, you might miss a soul mate walking past.
And I replied: Even if I’m missing out on a maybe-once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, I would feel like I’m moving too fast on these things. Sometimes it makes me think I’m such a "dating" person... which I don’t want to be.
And he concluded: It doesn’t matter how many dates you had, what matters is that you already thought about it, also someone has told me – date to as many as you can, because finding that 1 special person is very, very hard.

Could he be right? Could I be wrong? I really don’t know.

What's more, one of my bestfriends has told me: ‘You fall in love easily.’
That is kind of true, in a way; but I don’t let guys take an advantage of me, absolutely not. Lastly, another friend had also said: ‘When you fall in love, don’t just only use your heart, most importantly, use your head.’

...but overall, I guess I’m happy to experience it all.